2020 has shown us how unpredictable life can be. When I took that photo just few hours before 2021, the moon shone brightly, it seemed conveyed the sense of peacefulness and tranquility amidst the darkest hour. The moonlight reflected upon us to bring hope in life even in the darkness. Thus, I am grateful for the gift of life has God given me; a chance to celebrate my birthday on 31st of December 2020 with my family and it was one of the greatest gifts I have had. Yet, in more than 3 decades of my existence, 2020 was the most challenging and a life changing but it gave me time to reflect and I learned so much about myself; and how to value and appreciate little things. May be I experienced hardships, but it made me stronger and ready for 2021 which is still unpredictable. But sometimes, I couldn’t cease to think over and get an earful of news around the globe that makes me feel afraid and worried of the future of my daughter. Probably, some parents may feel the same way. We all have no idea when this current situation would end. So, just embrace and be hopeful to whatever may happen and lies before us and to our family. I know, God is always with us to guide and protect us and just be grateful and thankful that we are still here for our child/children to guide and protect them.
Last weekend, I read a book about Gift of Peace, this is really timely for the current situation which I think, I also need an inner peace or a peaceful mind. Honestly, sometimes I feel exhausted and incapable from the demands of raising a child and a lifelong journey of a motherhood. I am always thinking if how could I contribute financially as a stay at home mother? Despite of, circumstances happening nowadays, still I am grateful for a good provider, responsible and supportive husband to our family especially to our daughter by which it gives me peace of mind and security.
I am happy also that I could access internet which is another way to alleviate my stress and worry. I could express freely my feelings and thoughts to different platforms which I am comfortable with. I gained friends virtually who are open minded and understanding to different beliefs, culture and situation.
These days, I need a peace of mind to create a peaceful life and to fulfill my duty as a mother with confidence, joy and strength to raise a happy, kind and loving daughter.
As what Romans 12:2 says, “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Renewing of mind is a great way to begin living a more healthy and happy life.